New Year's Realizations

            Bringing in the New Year has such a nice feeling to it, doesn't it? Knowing that you have a whole new slate to start on can be refreshing. You finally have a chance, after 365 days, to renew yourself and have a new beginning. Whether sitting on a couch watching the “Big Ball” in New York City drop or partying your heart out, making it to a new year is an extremely exciting thing. It’s a sign to let go of the past year’s issues and drama, and start a positive new chapter, appropriately named 2011.

I Love You Like Mice Love Cheese

As the year draws to a close, my birthday draws near. The upcoming of these two events are extremely close, and although I feel like I’ve definitely been a mental and emotional slump over the past few days; I definitely feel uplifted. Sometimes I get a small case of pessimism, but after a little inspiration from the most inspirational woman I know, everything’s better. We all have those figures in our life that are our world. That person is your night light, and always has been. When times are unbelievably dark, that one person can just light it up with the wattage of their smile. They are your superhero.

The Best I Can Come Up With

                        Writer’s Block. This feeling is the root of all evil for one trying to take advantage of the moment when they have the most opportunity. It is the most awful feeling in the world to force a thought through your head, and as you get halfway through the process the worst possible thing happens: it gets lost. The thought that you have almost formed into a complete idea for a decent blog vanishes into thin air and you not only forget which direction your train of thought was going, but you can’t remember how you got there.

"Just call me Grace!"

If we’re lucky in life, we get the honor to meet these people that completely change our lives. Whether they do it consciously or not, there are those people who always say, do, or act the way that you need them to the most. They always have that question or statement that renders you speechless, only being able to say, “Hmm” because your mind has plummeted down and down through the valley of thought before you could stop it, and pretty soon you’re in a deeper thought than what you’ve ever experienced before. They always hold you up to that standard of, “when you’re older, I want you to understand…..” The point that they want you to grasp may sound incredibly cliché at the time. The thing that they want you to strive to understand and embody may seem easy, but at the time that it’s presented to you, you don’t even really realize what it is yet.

"Time Just Flies By"

I’m amazed sometimes at just how easily I seem to zoom down a track on my train of thought. It seems that sometimes a simple four word text message from someone I care about can send me blasting into realization faster with more force than a punch to the stomach. A simple statement just flings me, along with my train of thought, into a deep thought. I guess that proves how much I think. Too much.

Countdown

I haven’t typed in a while, and although I may not have much to say now, I know that there are thoughts willing to pour out onto this laptop. I know that as Owl City whispers in my ear, thoughts will be provoked because so many points haven’t been made yet. I have written many posts, none of which will see the publicity of internet. I have learned so many things since I’ve written publicly; I just have to share a few of them.

Life's Little Gifts

Here I sit on this fine Sunday evening, with a mixture of feelings that are begging desperately to be sorted. I’m sitting in the same spot as I always do, listening to the tunes of Taylor Swift. The only difference in this weekend’s end and those of other weekends is the way I had no control over the happenings of the weekend. I had no idea when I woke up Friday morning that I would be off to Birmingham, Alabama to listen to four of the greatest Christian women speakers of our time. I had no idea that my ever- changing perspective on life would change so radically, and that I would learn things I never thought I could learn at my age. I didn’t know when I woke up 7:00 Friday morning that I would be at school for an hour before I got checked out to pack and leave for Birmingham to get inspired in ways I wasn’t expecting. This weekend has been such a productive one, that I must number this craziness out for you.

Nobody Likes a Grinch

Well, I probably need to get a new hobby other than sitting on a certain spot in my room, cranking up the Swift/ Cyrus, typing my thoughts out on this laptop, and sending them into cyberspace for the world to read. I don’t quite understand the amazing joy I get out of finally being able to read my thoughts on a page, and knowing that all around the world people relate with my thought bubble and me. Maybe I’m just too easily amused, and will get a kick out of the simplest things. Perhaps I just appreciate the ‘little things’ in life. It’s possible that I look at things in a different way. It’s quite possible that I’ve grown up in my thinking over the years.

Avoiding Sleep

     So I really should be sleeping right now since I'm incredibly behind on it. I will never catch up on my sleep, but I felt the need to try to sort through these realizations I had while I was, if we're honest here, the shower. I'm probably not alone, but I do some of my most in depth thinking in the shower, and most always return from ShowerWorld with some new epitome. I was thinking a little about age, and how there are so many things come with getting older.